Hola Familia!!!!!!!!

Bueno....we talked yesterday and to be honest I was really really sad
because communication was so hard but I trust that everything is going
well- that Dad´s health is well and that David is doing just great and
that Mom had a great Mothers Day.  I felt kinda upset because we
didn´t get to communicate very well but I was grateful for whatever I
could get and that I got to hear your voices.  Honestly its really
hard for me to call home- its mixed feelings I am sure you understand
but know that I love you all and that I have prayed for each one of
you every day in the mission field and I pray that the Lord will
continue to bless you all more and more.

The mission has changed my life.  Changed the way I think, the way I
learn, the way I work.  The goals I once had before the mission seem
to be of little or no importance now.  The only thing that matters is
the work of the Lord and it is the only thing that brings this joy and
satisfaction even though there are days when all you can do is put one
foot in front of the other and leave the rest to the Lord.  Sometimes
I feel like I am not good enough, my weaknesses hold me back.  But its
line upon line.  Change is gradual.  I can´t think of one moment where
it all just clicked but through the little things every day that
happen the lord is teaching me and helping me learn.  And its the same
for you all too.  Little effort, but consistent, brings change.  I
found a quote last night that I had written down in the MTC but
forgotten all about it that has helped me

¨"God does not just focus on our ABILITY, but rather on our
AVAILABLITLY.  If we then prove our DEPENDABLITY, he will increase our
CAPABILITY"-- Neal A. Maxwell.

I am not sure what abilities I have but through obedience I guess I
will show the Lord that I am available!! :)

Its true.  I wrote in my journal a couple days ago when I was
reflecting on the opportunity I had to call mom and talk to everyone
and the reality is that I can´t wait to see you all again....but then
again I can.  Not because I don´t love you, or I don´t like being
home, but because I love this work and I never want it to end, though
I know one day it will.  I don´t want to leave Peru.  Thank goodness I
have 9 months left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know you might not want to hear that, but it is the truth.  So...yeah :)

Thank you for all your supporting and encouraging words every week and
your love you have demonstrated to me throughout the mission.  I am so
grateful to have such a wonderful family.  Grateful beyond words.

Hope you all have a fantastic week!

Love

Hermana Lindsey